The Great Departure 

Chapter 46

Good Monday Morning to this new week 46 of 2023 

“That night all the members of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, “If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this wilderness! Why is the Lord bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn’t it be better for us to go back to Egypt?” And they said to each other, “We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt.” Numbers 14; 1-4 

This week, I played a role in organising  an event with the church. We sought to infuse fresh elements into this annual event, beginning with a new venue, extending to the catering arrangements, and even reshaping the overall structure of the evening’s program. As the preparations unfolded, to my big astonishment” just 15 minutes before the event’s start, a chorus of skepticism echoed from various members of the employed staff.  Remarks such as “this won’t work,” “we’ve always done it like this,” and predictions of inadequacy permeated the air.

In the midst of these complaints, I took a moment for reflection. Inwardly, annoyance surfaced hearing the grumbing to what we as key team had organised, prompting me to draw a parallel with the timeless narrative of the people of Israel, as well described in the book of Numbers. Their yearning for the familiarity of Egypt emerged. This longing manifested as resistance, with dissenting voices expressing doubts about the chosen path. The echoes of discontent even reached a point where some suggested the unthinkable – appointing a new leader to guide them back into the captivity of Egypt. Astonishingly, they perceived this regression as a preferable alternative to the arduous journey through the wilderness towards the promised land under their current leadership.

Recognizing this parallel, I found myself reflecting on this resistance to change ingrained in the human psyche, the magnetic pull of the familiar, and the inherent trepidation that accompanies forays into uncharted territories. Much like the Israelites navigating their discontent, our own journey to innovate and welcome change encountered a large chorus of skepticism and doubt.

Standing there, just 15 minutes before the event, I apprehensively observed the unfolding scenario. The “point of no return” had long passed, and the realization set in that the meticulously planned event would proceed as intended. Yet, amidst this realization, a palpable sense of pressure mounted. The audible grumbling reverberated through the air, revealing that many aspects of the preparations lay far beyond the comfort zones of the broader staff, who had not been intimately involved in the decision-making process for the event.

Certainly, I understand that the analogy may not be a perfect and even wrong to a certain degree, as the aspects of the past that we idealize are not directly linked to the captivity experienced by the Israelites. However, it’s intriguing how parallels emerge when we reflect on various facets of life. People often reminisce about a seemingly simpler time, citing factors such as having more time, enjoying better food, experiencing fewer illnesses, the absence of social media distractions, fewer cars on the road, and the abundance of trees— the list goes on. While acknowledging the differences in context, it’s fascinating to observe the common human tendency to romanticize aspects of the past, yearning for a time perceived as unburdened by the complexities of the present. This sentiment, though not synonymous with the Israelites’ captivity, echoes a experience in many current discussions. 

In response to the rebellion, Moses and Aaron fell facedown before the assembly gathered at the entrance of the tent of meeting. Their reaction was one of humility and earnest supplication before God. Joshua, the son of Nun, and Caleb, one of the twelve spies who had given a positive report about the Promised Land, tore their clothes in distress.

They tried to reason with the people, emphasizing the goodness of the land God had promised them and urging faith in God’s ability to bring them into it.

Moses then interceded on behalf of the people before God. In Numbers 14:13-19 (NIV), Moses said:

“But Moses said to the Lord, ‘Then the Egyptians will hear about it! By your power, you brought these people up from among them. And they will tell the inhabitants of this land about it. They have already heard that you, Lord, are with these people and that you, Lord, have been seen face to face, that your cloud stays over them, and that you go before them in a pillar of cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night. If you put all these people to death, leaving none alive, the nations who have heard this report about you will say, “The Lord was not able to bring these people into the land he promised them on oath, so he slaughtered them in the wilderness.”

Now may the Lord’s strength be displayed, just as you have declared: “The Lord is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation.” In accordance with your great love, forgive the sin of these people, just as you have pardoned them from the time they left Egypt until now.'”

Despite the people’s rebellion and desire to appoint a new leader and return to Egypt, Moses interceded on their behalf, appealing to God’s character and emphasizing God’s mercy and forgiveness.

This passage imparts a valuable lesson on the profound impact of humility and forgiveness. Moses, in his role as a leader, showcased a remarkable ability to navigate the tumult of discontent rooted in reflections on the past, doing so with grace. His plea to God serves as a great reminder of the transformative power inherent in forgiveness and the essential nature of collective responsibility.

Wishing you all a good start to this new week. 

Philemon

The gift of presence

Chapter 45

Stoop down and reach out to those who are oppressed. Share their burdens, and so complete Christ’s law. Galations 6.2 MSG

When God reveals His name to Moses as “I AM WHO I AM” (Exodus 3:14), He shows Himself as the God of Presence: the One who is with us and for us. The incarnation of Christ is the ultimate proof of this presence: “And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us” (John 1:14). Emmanuel—“God with us”—is not just a name but the essence of God’s closeness to His creation, including humanity.

People of faith face an important challenge: How can we work toward healing and unity rather than deepening division? How can we create spaces of connection, even in times of separation? This calling requires a special wisdom in how we communicate and an openness to each other, combined with spiritual and practical support to bridge relational rifts.

With gratitude, we acknowledge God’s presence in all these efforts and thank those who act as His hands and feet in the mission of presence—partners, friends, and family who walk with us; those who pray and give; those who encourage with words and deeds; those who take risks for others; and those who create spaces from which we can look to the future with shared hope.

These reflections lead me to deeper questions: Who is present in my life? In whose life am I truly present? Who are we, co-present with each other in the mission of revealing Christ’s presence? How can my presence become a space for God’s action and a source of hope for others? Where am I particularly called to be present?

As Christ became the visible sign of the invisible God, our presence in each other’s lives is called to be a visible sign of His unseen but very real presence—a presence that is deeply needed in our world, divided by conflict, where embodied signs of His love and faithfulness shine as a beacon of hope.

Paraphrased and summarized from a text called “Journey Home”.

Wishing a very present start to this new week.
Philemon

A divine spark

Chapter 44

Good morning! I love sharing a bit of inspiration and saw a great text by M. Chironna that captures it well. Inspiration, he suggests, is not just a fleeting spark. It’s a call that stirs something dormant within us, drawing us toward a greater purpose.

“At the heart of what inspires us lies a deep, often unspoken search for meaning—one that is as much spiritual as it is psychological. Inspiration doesn’t simply happen; it awakens something dormant within us, calling us toward a greater sense of purpose or a fuller understanding of ourselves. Spiritually, inspiration can be seen as a divine spark, a moment of givenness where something transcendent touches our lives. It is as if God momentarily lifts us out of the ordinary, inviting us to glimpse a reality greater than ourselves. In this sense, inspiration is often about revelation—it reveals something we couldn’t fully see before, shedding light on a new perspective or possibility. Psychologically, inspiration resonates because it satisfies a deep-seated human need for growth, transcendence, and transformation. We might speak of Maslow’s construct of self-actualization, yet apart from the impartation of the Creator and our progressive partaking in His image and likeness, this remains an ideal that falls short of the actual glory of God. As Irenaeus reminds us, “the glory of God is a human being fully alive.” Christ Himself embodies the fullness of potential for the entire human race, a reality we are invited to embrace in Him. It is Christ—by way of the Cross—who leads us toward the fullest realization of our potential and enables us to transcend the broken limitations of the human ego. The Cross, through the inwrought work of the Spirit, moves us beyond self-centered desires and calls us to a life congruent with the Divine intent. Truly transformative inspiration often comes when we encounter the One who can do “exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think.” It is the Spirit who calls us into the mediatorial presence and work of Christ, the Author and Perfecter of our faith, who alone does all things well, calls those things that are not as though they were, and promises to make a way where there seems to be no way. Abiding in union with this One—before whom prophets and sages fell as if dead in reverent awe at His “otherness”—we are invited into a life that not only transcends our limitations but reflects the unbounded, resurrected life of Christ.” M. Chironna

Wishing you an inspired unbounded start to this new week! “
Philemon

Escapism

Chapter 43

Yes, escapism can actually be found in various forms in the Bible, where individuals or even communities try to avoid their current reality through distractions, isolation, or by seeking out imagined futures instead of facing their immediate issues. Here are some interesting biblical examples that resemble escapism:

Jonah the Runaway Prophet – Picture this: God tells Jonah to go preach to the people of Nineveh. Jonah’s response? “Nah, I’ll just take the world’s first Mediterranean cruise instead!” Cue Jonah booking it to the nearest port, hopping on a boat to Tarshish, and telling himself, “I’m totally not avoiding my problems. Just… travelling.” But even on the high seas, God has a way of finding you—so in comes the storm, a panicked crew, and an enormous fish ready to give Jonah a serious (and slimy) wake-up call.

Israelites’ Love Affair with Egypt’s ‘Fine Cuisine’. So, the Israelites escaped slavery in Egypt. Freedom! The open desert! …and the realization they’re all out of snacks. Almost immediately, they start romanticizing the “good old days” back in Egypt. “Ah, remember the fish? The cucumbers? Sure, we were slaves, but at least the food was decent!” Turns out, wandering the wilderness really makes you forget the whole “brick-making-under-the-whip” part.

False Prophets Selling Fairy Tales – Enter the false prophets, strolling in with messages like, “Everything’s fine! Peace is coming! Trust me!” Imagine them as ancient infomercial hosts: “Are you tired of doom and gloom prophecies? Try Our Super Peace and Prosperity Solution!” But behind the hype, things weren’t exactly rainbows and butterflies, and prophets like Jeremiah had to roll in with a reality check, breaking it to the people that ‘peace’ might not actually be “just three easy payments of some $ away.

The Prodigal Son’s Great Escape, is hardly the glamorous escape he envisioned. In a moment of clarity, he realizes that sometimes, the road back home is the true escape from the chaos we create for ourselves.

Elijah’s Wilderness Retreat, After a showdown with the prophets of Baal, Elijah finds himself on the run, consumed by fear and despair. But God, ever the compassionate caretaker, sends an angel with food and encouragement, showing that true refuge often comes not from isolation but from divine support.

Peter’s Return to Fishing – After the chaos of Jesus’ crucifixion, what does Peter do? He goes back to his old life as a fisherman, soothing but ultimately unfulfilling. Jesus eventually meets Peter on the shore, cooking breakfast and inviting him to step out of his comfort zone.

Sometimes, the urge to escape our challenges leads us back to places we thought we’d outgrown, but growth often happens when we face our calling head-on.

Escapism is often a journey toward deeper understanding. While each character sought to escape their reality, their encounters with God, whether through storms, wilderness, or reminders of purpose-led them back to the path of growth and fulfilment.

Let us neither embrace the chaos nor seek to escape it, but instead strive to navigate through it as the path becomes uncertain, drawing upon faith in God’s great mercy to guide us forward.

Philemon

Brutal Honesty

Chapter 42

BeingHuman #OnTheRoadAgain #BrutalHonesty

I truly need to share this with you. It comes from Ukraine, but it could just as easily be from pastors in Gaza, Israel, Lebanon, Syria, or Sudan. I admire the honesty of this man as he shares his grief and helplessness in his role as director of a theological faculty. I’m sharing it unedited… God have mercy – Phliemon

I am ashamed to look into your eyes through Zoom, and I am unbearably ashamed when you ask, “How are you?” I cannot articulate this overwhelming sense of powerlessness. A burning shame engulfs me as partners, you… expect heroic resilience while I wake in the night’s depths, gripped by panic attacks, unable even to respond to your earnest emails.

You may perceive us as unbreakable warriors of light, heroic Christians standing upon the frontlines of a spiritual battle, real “People of the Bridge”… And yet? I flinch at every air raid siren. I weep at photographs of yet another funeral… I freeze in stupor upon hearing of another brother or sister’s death… in Christ or without Christ… or an atheist who is going the Hell… being predestined by God of “calvinists” before the creation of the universe…

“We’re praying for you!” many write. And I feel unworthy of these prayers. For you think you pray for a courageous warrior of faith, when in reality, your prayers fall upon a broken vessel barely holding together… Your intercessions reach one who oftentimes cannot even pray, as words lodge in the throat alongside unshed tears…

You marvel at how we are “holding up.” But I know the bitter truth – sometimes we are not holding up at all; we are merely falling more slowly than others… At times, what keeps me from utter collapse is not heroic faith, but mere human stubbornness and the deeply ingrained habit of rising each morning… to fulfil “job description” for survival sake…

It is unbearably shameful to confess that I sometimes envy your peaceful sky, in Europe… in the US… When you speak of your “challenges” with fundraising or team building, I must restrain myself from crying out: “What difference does it make! We are at war! My people… my family members perish daily!”…

Yet what brings the deepest shame is this very shame about my personal weakness… But did not the Apostle Paul teach that God’s power is made perfect in weakness? Did not Christ Himself demonstrate that true greatness lies in acknowledging our vulnerability before the Father?… Maybe, I mis-read the Gospel…

Perhaps our true strength resides not in our capacity to remain unbreakable, but in our courage to be honest? I do not know… You decide… Not in our ability to conceal pain, but in our willingness to share it with others? I do not know… You decide… Perhaps when we find the courage to say: “I am terrified. I am in unbearable pain. I know not how to continue” – it is then we most resemble Christ in Gethsemane?… I do not know… You decide…

And perhaps our very brokenness serves as the most authentic testimony to our brothers and sisters abroad? Does it reveal to you not some imagined pantheon of faith superheroes, but the true visage of the Church Militant – beaten, bloodied, yet alive? A Church that perseveres in service and love even through tears and all-consuming fear? Does it?…

So perhaps the time has come to cease being ashamed of our weakness…? Time to tell our partners with complete honesty: “Yes, we are broken. Yes, we are frightened. Yes, we often feel utterly helpless. Yet we remain. Still praying when strength allows. Still serving when energy permits. And herein lies the true miracle of God’s grace”…?

For in the end, perhaps what glorifies God most profoundly is not our strength… What an evangelical heresy! … but our willingness to be weak before Him and before one another? … The courage to acknowledge: “We are not heroes. We are simply people clinging to Christ amidst a devastating storm”… We… I…. simply a broken evangelical… Peace be with you, and keep your children away from war…

—
Taras M. Dyatlik
Ukraine
972nd day of Russia’s full-scale war

The Four Horsemen

Chapter 41

Albrecht Dürer’s The Four Horsemen is part of his renowned woodcut series The Apocalypse (1498), inspired by the biblical Book of Revelation (6:1–8). In this dramatic artwork, the Four Horsemen symbolise Conquest, War, Famine, and Death, forces of destruction unleashed as divine judgement upon the world. Viewing this piece today reminds me of the daily images of war, famine, chaos, enslavement, and destruction that fill our news feeds.

Dürer’s depiction of the horsemen, with their powerful, galloping figures trampling everything in their path, resonates with the unstoppable forces of turmoil we see around us. Yet, we must remember that these four figures might also represent people in power, those who cause destruction, but also those who can prevent or overcome it. They remind us that even in the face of such evil, there is always the potential for change and restoration.

In contrast, I recently saw an image by Banksy: a young Arab boy and a Jewish boy, together, planting and caring for a tree, nurturing and protecting life amidst a world torn by conflict. This simple yet powerful scene reflects a different vision, one of hope, healing, and shared responsibility.

Our understanding of the world, and the way we respond to the challenges we face, is deeply influenced by the times we live in and the perspective we choose to adopt. Just because we are surrounded by the chaos of wild horsemen wreaking havoc doesn’t mean that this is the only future available to us.

This picture is inspired by the passage in Scripture from Revelation, which has sparked numerous intriguing interpretations among scholars. However, I won’t go into those interpretations here and now. So, in moments of despair, we might ask ourselves: WWJD—What would Jesus do or say? His vision of love, peace, and redemption is always a reminder that there is another way forward.

Jesus might say: “Love your neighbour, forgive others, seek peace, serve selflessly, treat others as you would want to be treated, trust in God’s provision, and don’t worry about tomorrow, live with love, humility, and faith.” All 4 verses of the gospel of Matthew.
In this regard, Jesus’ vision of the future was centred on the Kingdom of God—a new reality marked by justice, peace, love, and righteousness, where humanity would be reconciled with God and one another. He envisioned a time of renewal and restoration, where evil would be overcome, and God would wipe away every tear, making all things new. Jesus also spoke of a day of judgement, where justice would prevail, and His vision included a future of peace, where swords would be turned into ploughshares, symbolising the end of conflict and the beginning of a new time.

As I reflect on the themes of the four horsemen and the power of vision, I invite you to consider your own perspective. What is your vision of the future? Where do you draw your inspiration from in times of uncertainty? In a world filled with chaos and division, what anchors you and gives you hope?

Wishing you a good start to this new week.
Philemon

Reflections on World Mental Health Day

Chapter 40

Didn’t we just read of this Elijah … we see Elijah at the pinnacle of his ministry. There he is on Mt. Carmel taking on the whole army of the prophets of Baal single-handedly in the name of the living God of Israel, and achieving a stunning, fiery victory. … yet, so soon after ….

Elijah was afraid and ran for his life. When he came to Beersheba in Judah, he left his servant there, while he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep. 1. Kings 19; 1-5

This past week, on the 10th of October, we observed World Mental Health Day—a day dedicated to raising awareness, reducing stigma, and promoting mental well-being around the globe. 🌍

Elijah’s experience of exhaustion, fear, and despair, followed by divine restoration, mirrors the struggles many face today. Drawing from Dr. Christopher Wright’s insights, here are four key aspects of God’s tender care that can guide us through moments of emotional and mental distress:

1️⃣ Rest and Nourishment

In Elijah’s darkest moment, God didn’t immediately demand action or deep introspection. Instead, He provided the essentials: rest, food, and water. Often, our first steps toward healing are to attend to our physical needs—sleep, nutrition, and hydration. Self-care, sometimes overlooked in its simplicity, can be the foundation for emotional recovery.

2️⃣ Back to Basics

After Elijah’s physical needs were met, God reminded him of his core mission and calling. He brought Elijah back to the basics of his faith, grounding him in what mattered most. In moments of mental struggle, revisiting our values, beliefs, or passions can help us reconnect with our sense of purpose.

3️⃣ Gentle Reflection

Through a quiet, gentle whisper, God asks Elijah, “What are you doing here?” This moment of calm reflection is an invitation to pause and reassess. Elijah’s story teaches us that reflection doesn’t have to be harsh or critical. Sometimes, gentle introspection leads us back to clarity and self-understanding.

4️⃣ Recommissioning

God doesn’t leave Elijah in his despair. Instead, He recommissions him—giving him new direction and purpose. Importantly, God also ensures Elijah knows he isn’t alone by providing him with a companion. In the same way, we are reminded that in our moments of struggle, finding support, community, and renewed purpose can be the path to restoration.

This World Mental Health Day, may we be reminded that even in our darkest moments, healing is possible. Just as Elijah experienced, we too can find rest, reflection, and renewal. Let us extend compassion, both to ourselves and to those around us, as we navigate the complexities of mental health. 🌿

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28

For more insights into Elijah’s journey and its relevance to mental health, read the full article: Elijah and the Healing of Depression and Fear

Wishing you a good start to this week.
Philemon

Prophecy – forward-looking journey

Chapter 39

This week, I’ve been listening deeply and often to the song “Prophecy” by David Brymer through INRI. “Prophecy” is a cinematic, ambient, forward-looking instrumental that takes you on a profound journey. INRI, the musical expression of David Brymer, offers fresh, experimental spiritual instrumental music—truly the soundtrack for a new world!

As I listen, I’m reminded of the beautiful verse from Isaiah 43:19: “Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth; do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”

Wishing you moments of peace this week as you navigate the beautiful yet challenging journeys many of you have shared with me.

blessings
Philemon

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Lessons from the Forest Floor

Chapter 38

Good Monday Morning to this new week of 2024

They are like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither—whatever they do prospers. Psalm 1:3

Yesterday, I went for a hike, and during the first hour, I walked downhill through a forest. The trail was full of exposed roots—washed bare by water and rain, leaving much of the dirt gone. I’m used to navigating rocky trails and have a sense of where to place my feet. But this time, walking over the roots was tricky. My hiking boots, designed with hard rubber for gripping rocks, kept slipping on the roots. Thankfully, I made it down safely without slipping too much.

We often hear how having “roots” is healthy and good. It’s a strong metaphor. Yesterday, I saw plenty of roots—but I found myself wishing they had stayed underground! Isn’t that a meaningful metaphor for this new week? We need strong, deep roots, but they don’t always need to be visible. They can stay hidden, doing their work beneath the surface. Many things in your life establish a firm foundation, deeply rooted but unseen. If they become too visible, they could turn into stumbling “root” for others.

An interesting thought as we step into this new week.

Wishing you a great start,
Philemon

Echo Chambers

Chapter 37

Good Monday morning and welcome to week 37 of 2024!

Information comes from a myriad of sources and perspectives, but when we only hear the same viewpoints repeatedly, we risk being trapped in what’s known as an echo chamber.

The Bible warns against a narrow, self-centered approach to faith and understanding. For instance, Proverbs 18:2 says, “A fool takes no pleasure in understanding but only in expressing his opinion.” This verse cautions against isolating oneself from diverse perspectives.

In her book “When Faith Disappoints: Finding Hope and Healing in the Midst of Doubt,” Lisa Fields explores into the challenges and struggles of faith, particularly when faced with disappointment and doubt. She emphasizes that genuine faith often arises from the freedom to grapple with profound spiritual questions.

Francis Bacon wisely noted, “If we begin with certainties, we shall end in doubts; but if we begin with doubts, and are patient in them, we shall end in certainties.”

Similarly, a Spanish proverb states, “Among the safe courses, the safest of all is to doubt,” while Voltaire observed, “Doubt is uncomfortable, certainty is ridiculous.”

The prophet Jeremiah also voiced his doubts to God:
“Lord, you always give me justice when I bring a case before you. So let me bring you this complaint: Why are the wicked so prosperous? Why are evil people so happy?”

Apologetics goes beyond merely winning arguments; it’s about addressing the emotional and spiritual wounds that underlie skepticism. Often, a lack of belief stems from personal pain or disappointment, leading to a fragmented understanding of God, shaped by selective Scriptures and teachings or flawed definitions.

The problem of evil isn’t resolved through intellectual answers alone; it requires space for emotional wrestling and personal reflection. Healing in the Christian life demands vulnerability, confession, and authentic community, not isolation or superficial connections.

Misconceptions about God arise when faith is grounded in half-truths and cultural ideals rather than the full richness of Scripture. True peace, as embodied by Christ, involves emotional complexity and acknowledges that struggle and tears are part of the journey.

Purpose is not found in external achievements or recognition but in being conformed to the image of Christ. Pain and purpose coexist, and spiritual maturity involves recognizing that external success cannot heal internal wounds.

As we navigate our faith, let’s remember to embrace diverse perspectives, allowing room for doubt and growth. Through this openness, we can achieve a deeper, more resilient understanding of our beliefs and find healing and purpose in our journey.

To this new week of opinions, options and openness, I wish you a great start.

Philemon